Wednesday, May 19, 2010

i'm still alive and the "J" word




Wow...it took me about two hours to get my pics loaded onto Blogger. I thought it was a problem with the site...or maybe it because I actually forgot how to blog.


A few months ago I got what my friend referred to as the "J" word...a job! It's all still very strange to me. I haven't worked since my first son was born over ten years ago!!! Before he was born, while working full-time, I was also working part-time as an assistant to a designer. Knowing that that I was planning to get pregnant, I would eventually quit my full time job and keep the assistant job. My plan started out perfectly...I made my own hours, did layouts at home while the baby slept and when I had to go see clients, my mother would watch the baby for me for an hour or so. It was the perfect job to keep my feet wet until I would one day go back to work and I loved it! A year and a half later my mother died and I quit!
I am a firm believer in doing what you love and being creative is what I love. This job isn't very creative...it's not "me". It is pretty surreal to realize one day that 10 years have flown by and, WOW, finding a job is not so easy...


...by easy I mean a job that will have me home in time to pick my boys up from school. A job that I can't be at during the evenings because, between the three of them, there is at least one baseball or basketball game every night. A job that doesn't need me on weekends because of again, baseball, football or whatever the sport is that season, and my husband usually has photo shoots on weekends. A job that I don't have to work all summer or on school breaks or that doesn't mind that during my second week I had to call in because my son was sick. A job that even if I could find a babysitter to stay with three very active little boys, pays enough for me to pay the babysitter! But most of all a job that I can use my creativity and that I will love!

Really, I'm not complaining! I think it's more about the guilt of not working while all my kids are in school now. I also think it's about not having anyone home to take care of...no more babies!!! I've loved my "job" for the past 10 years...I really did!


5 comments:

julie said...

Hi Jennifer,
Good to hear from you! Maybe the perfect job with an opportunity for you to use all of your wonderful creativity will pop up unexpectedly in the not too distant future. In the meantime, I hope you find enjoyment in the one you currently have. Take care!

cindy said...

Glad to see that you are still here...sorry to hear about the Jay Oh Bee...boo! While it is a necessary evil, perhaps you can eventually push through and find something that is more you. All that creative talent of yours should NOT be wasted. Hugs my fren.

-c
yapping cat

Elyse said...

hi jennifer,

your post is so interesting to me. my oldest is 9 1/2 and i have been home since he was 4 weeks old. i do work as a consultant and am trying to find more similar work to stay flexible but we'll see. i can imagine how surreal it all must be to be back to a full-time job. isn't it great that you were home all of these years.

i hope all is going well! remember: take-out is your friend! :)

xo
elyse

Ann said...

wow interesting i read this today--just as I have been thinking i need to find a j-word too,many reasons: 3 kids to put thru college, boredom, lonely now that all 3 in school all day...but i'd love the summer off! ;)

tara said...

oh goodness, this little post has been ringing in my ears lately, I work a full time job always have, and my wee one is 3...so imagine all the things I have missed...but you do what you have to do and pull your big girl boots up and step up to the plate, and you are right finding a job that is creative and has good hours is tough, really tough...maybe this job will turn into soemthing else for you or lead you into a new direction! good luck! happy summer!